Over the last month I really feel that I have finally gotten my sh%* together. Facebook is a wonderful tool, at times and at times it sucks. The last few days facebook has been showing me pictures of myself from a year ago and I was pretty shocked by them.
I want to be clear that it is not all about the physical change, but for sure that is the most noticeable and I’d be lying if I said it didn’t matter, because it does. I look at the picture above and can’t believe I even felt good last year and if I am completely honest I didn’t. I made excuses, I was depressed and I was stuck in the same patterns making no forward progression.
Fast forward a year and that has all changed. I am physically and mentally in a great place. I have dropped 25 lbs and my running has never been better. I am well on my way to my goals and there is nothing that is going to stop me now.
What has changed in a year?
I have. It gets old saying it, but turning thirty-nine set off a switch in my brain. I am half-way through my life if I am lucky and I didn’t want to remain stuck in the same patterns and rut….yes rut. What’s the saying? The definition of insanity is doing the same things and expecting different results. That’s exactly what I was doing and when I finally came to that realization, I changed and got my shit together.
Was it Easy?
Nope, it wasn’t. The thing about change is that not everyone likes change and not everyone likes to see others succeed where they fail. My mindset has basically become fu&% everyone else, because this transformation is about me and me alone. If someone doesn’t like what they see, well too fu&%ing bad, they can stop looking. I have made me and my goals, needs and wants a priority for the first time in a very long time and I honestly don’t care if anyone else likes it or not.
What did I actually do?
Physically the biggest change was starting a weight training program. A friend asked me to participate in her Fit4Mom Body Back Transformation and share it on my blog. I jumped at the chance and Body Back helped to propel me forward. In addition to Body Back I started the Emily Skye F.I.T. program and participated in kickboxing. During first two and a half months I wasn’t running due to an injury, so surprisingly most of my changed were the results of weight training and cleaning up my diet.
The most surprising change occurred when I did start running again. It was easier. My paces were faster. I trained for a half marathon in eight weeks with a goal of 2:14 and I ended up running a 1:59. Crazy!!!!!
Mentally I gained my sense of self and confidence back. I stopped trying to please others and starting doing things to please myself. I made me a priority. I didn’t realize how down I was the last few years until I wasn’t. I was not happy with me. Now I am and I am loving the person I am right at this moment.
What are my goals moving forward?
Run a 1:45 half in January at Naples and BQ in 2018. Those are the two big ones. According to my Garmin race predictor I am close already and I haven’t even begun to train.
My body is ore capable now than it has been in my entire life and I am excited about what it can achieve in the next year!