My biggest problem is negativity. I will say that over the years I have worked very hard to reduce the amount of negative thoughts and thinking that goes on in my mind but when things look bleak I tend to revert back to that negative thinking. It is a major problem and it really messes with my mojo.
This week when I got injured during my long run my thoughts reverted to negativity. Basically I had myself in surgery and out of the marathon before I could even give myself a day or two to rest and recover. The timeline of my injury plus my negative, irrational thought process went like this:
Sunday: 14.5 mile run with an injury (knee pain) during the last half mile=no marathon
Monday: Pain and difficulty walking=something seriously wrong which means surgery plus no marathon
Tuesday: Feeling better but still experiencing slight pain=orthopedist appointment made so I could get the bad news that I’ll need surgery and not be able to run the marathon.
Tuesday 4:00 pm: Headed to the orthopedist even though most knee pain has now subsided=Knee is good but shin hurts so I must have a stress fracture.
Tuesday 6:00 pm: Left orthopedist with no official injuries except for tendonitis of lower leg=no running until Saturday or Sunday and definitely no long run this week which means no marathon
Wednesday: Feeling better = I emailed my coach to confirm that I would not be able to run the marathon
Thursday 7:30 am: Coach emailed me back and wants me to call him = definitely no marathon
Thursday 8 am: Spoke with Coach who said not to worry I can absolutely run the marathon and this is probably a blessing in disguise which will actually end up being good for my training rather than detrimental. Alternate exercises prescribed including elliptical training, strength training and stretching. *sigh* (of relief) I will be able to run the marathon.
All’s well that ends well…..right!?! I am happy to say that I will be able to run the marathon but when I read about my irrational thinking I am so unhappy that when the going gets tough my thoughts revert back to complete negativity. I really do believe in the power of positive thinking and positivity results in a better outcome but I just can’t convince my brain that this is true. Negativity is my safety blanket because if I think the worst then when the worst happens I pretty much was expecting it so the disappointment is less detrimental.
Negativity is not productive, as a matter of fact it is actually counterproductive and can actually make things worse. I have definitely become a more positive person and the negativity is not as prominent in my thoughts as it used to be but after this week I still believe it is a problem that I need to work harder at combatting completely. I am going to take a cue from Harold’s recent blog post, “The Power of “I Will”. I WILL stop the negative thinking and be more positive.
Now for something positivity!!
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It is Friday which means the weekend is here!!!!!! I hope everyone has an awesome weekend!!!
What helps you stay positive??