I feel like I am always recovering from something, this week it is the flu. I haven't run in two weeks and marathon training was supposed to start last week, but I am just going to forge forward without thinking about it too much. Jess, my coach, says not too worry because we are just at the beginning stages of training and since I have a good baseline taking the time off for the illness and recovery shouldn't impact my training too much.
Unfortunately, my brain always thinks the worst. Now I will fail because I couldn't start my training. BQ, what was I thinking?? Is this a sign maybe I shouldn't run another marathon??? What is wrong with me that I just can't stay well?? Do I jinx myself?? And the thoughts go on and on and on.
Tonight I will run for the first time in two weeks and I am a little nervous….the thoughts start again, can I still run?? I will be sooo slow. I won't be able to do a mile.
I really need to change my thought process, because although I know it is irrational, it still brings me down. Positivity has never been my strong suit, but I am trying to change that because I actually want to be positive. I want to be that person that looks on the bright side, that actually feels the the lows will eventually result in highs.
These are my new positive thoughts that I will ingrain into my head today: Yay!! I am running again. It may be hard, but it will be awesome just to get back out there. Not every run has to be fast and I am recovering from the flu! This run will be awesome!!
I am ready to work on changing my mindset to positivity and thinking positive thoughts, whether I actually believe them or not, is a start!
Are you a positive thinker or do you dwell on the negative?